A Sticky Wicket

How do you tell your boss you need more money? Especially when you are a complete chicken shit when it comes to things like this...I can't even ask for a day off without having an anxiety attack!  This is the first year I haven't gotten a raise...ok I can deal with it.  Well, I can't really - things are really difficult right now.  I am a single mother now which means our income is much less than last year.  I have pondered more than once looking for a new job....ugh.  My medical is thru my Ex and that will stay until we legally divorce.  I am supposed to see the financial side of that in my pay because its a benefit of my job. Health insurance rates climb every year as we all know, but my medical benefit in my paycheck hasn't.  I raised that concern once and was told there isn't any money for that right now.

My roadblocks are more large large cement walls!  I love my job, I love my bosses - they are almost like family.  We are close, but I don't take advantage of that I do my job without complaining .... ever.  My job isn't rocket science but I believe in my company like it were my own and I really enjoy it.  It has been my salvation many many many days! I work Saturdays which I hate and other weekends when necessary. They are very generous to me in other areas - like time.  I can take care of personal things during the day if they come up which is a huge bonus in my  life as a single mother and homeowner. Who even says I would find another job.

The reality is I know there isn't money for me to get a raise - I do the books! I don't want another job. I love my job, but I am scared that I will have to find something else.   Oy its a sticky situation! I need a miracle.  I need someone to give my company a million dollars! and I need my Ex to make more money!! All, so I can stay happy and DAMN that's all that counts right now!!