Invitation to Disaster

An invitation came in the mail today!  Wow I haven't seen something like this since hmmm....I can't remember!  It was addressed to both the Ex and I.  Should we go holding hands and let tongues wag?  I sort of think that this party isn't my scene anymore. I feel out of the loop so to speak.  These people were once good friends, but times change and people lives move in different directions.  How do you handle a party together after a separation/divorce?  I know my Ex will not attend.  He was never the social type anyway and this would send him into sheer panic.   I can hear you all now; hold your head up high and go.  But you don't understand after you go through something like this its not so easy...at all. 

First you walk into a social party such as this - there is bound to be a lot of what I call "fancy's" there - and you feel like everyone is staring at you, then talking about you.  You go immediately to your comfort zone - THE BAR.  Phew you made it there and you can talk to bartender who is always a friend.  You stand by THE BAR and drink ... fast as the nerves are starting to ease thanks to the drink you had before you left and this one.

You make idle chit chat with some of the husbands getting white wine for their wives and most of them don't have a clue about anything so you are safe. Grab another drink and you are ready to explore the crowd...but wait...take a look to see where you are going and where you are avoiding.  Head straight for an easy target.  If its a really good party they have trays of drinks going around the crowd...grab one and go.  Now, you maybe a little sloshy...a little, but you have a smile on your face and your nerves are behind.

You make more idle chit chat with people you haven't seen in a while - probably talking about the kids (a safte topic) while gripping your drinks glass and secretly looking for the passing drink tray. Really no one will notice your eyes roaming around the room....really its okay. The passing tray is close but can you get to her without knocking over a table? Yes, you can if it weren't for those DAMN heels you had to wear (you did have to look your best).  You teedle toddle a bit on the heels trying not to fall ass over tea kettle blaming the mistep on the rug. Okay maybe you are a little more than tipsy or sloshy...maybe you are drunk!  If people weren't talking about you before - they sure are now. Find a safe target and go siddle in on that conversation pretending you have only had one drink.  You realize the party is too stuffy and not fun enough to waste your time and you head for the door!

So should I go?